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The Battle with Loneliness

For years and years I was tortured 

By bouts of extreme loneliness. 

They came from no where. 

The hurt and unexplainable 

feeling of being unloved

Were just too much so often. 

And in my head, I heard, 

"You're just a statistic."

But it didn't come from me. 

It took years before I knew 

That it was a lie from the enemy of my soul. 

Still, I wanted to rise above it,

I tried to the self-esteme thing

And other forms of worldly wisdom. 

But none of that ever helped me. 

I looked for others 

to fill my empty tank. 

But my suffering went unchanged. 

But God...

He grabbed me up in the midst 

Of one of those tormenting bouts. 

When there was no person near

To help me out. 

He reminded me of His truths, 

Written in His Word. 

He showed me His love 

And His presence -

All while it contradicted my feelings. 

He showed me that He is always near

And then asked me the question, 

"Do you believe me?"

I realized then that although faith is a gift,

It's also a choice. 

It's a choice to take His Word

Above any so-called contradictory evidence. 

He reinforced to me

That although my feelings will change, 

He never does. 

His love for me, and each of us,

Has and always will be. 

He is near, 

And we only need to trust that. 

He wants us to give Him our worst,

Trust Him with our hearts and 

Be real with Him. 

It is in those moments, 

He reveals Himself, too.